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You see me smiling through the camera. Laughing with my family and friends, Encouraging others around me.

But deep down inside all I want to do is rush to the bathroom and breakdown, let the tears flow. If I had the choice, I’d take to my room, curl up into a ball and sleep. Sleep all day and night, pretending that nothing is wrong.

I am a broken women.

Having gone through many trials in my young adult life, remembering all the things I’ve been through as a child. Sexual abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse. I want to scream and I shout, “someone please help me!”.

Somebody please…

Is anybody out there willing to listen ? Listen to me through a broken voice, while you watch the tears run down my face but all I see is my childhood self wipes tears away from her little face…. like everything is going to be ok.

Stay Strong. Be Strong. You ARE Strong, they say..

Growing up to be this women. who will not allow any man to help her because she trusts NO MAN. No man… because men, they are scary, untrustworthy and evil.

They don’t deserve me…..I am strong. I am strong.

Even after you’ve passed, the memories are still alive and well. I often wake up to nightmares of you, but when I realize it’s just a dream, I sigh a huge breath of relief.

I am safe. 

Safe in the flesh but not in my head. My heart and soul aches for my childhood self, wishing that I could reverse time and start over, knowing that I can’t.

It’s time for acceptance.

Facing the truth about my childhood will be difficult. Sharing this with you is even more so. I am doing this for myself. It’s time for me to heal.

Aufait Mama, Strength in motherhood, fashion, Au Fait Mama Review, Fashion after baby

Aufait Mama, Strength in motherhood, fashion, Au Fait Mama Review, Fashion after baby

Aufait Mama, Strength in motherhood, fashion, Au Fait Mama Review, Fashion after baby

Aufait Mama, Strength in motherhood, fashion, Au Fait Mama Review, Fashion after baby

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  • Tara Jensen

    Lovely, I remember reading that 1 in 4 children will be abused at one point in their life. YOU are not alone, there are so many survivors standing with you. You are incredibly brave to share your story, and I hope you know that any of us are here if you need us!

  • Kristin Davies

    You are a beautiful and strong woman! Thank you for sharing this. xoxo

  • Amaris

    I’m so sorry for you pain. I know it’s so difficult. Thank you for sharing such a raw and honest post. You’re an amazingly strong woman!

  • You are so brave for sharing this! As someone who has worked with children and adults who have suffered from abuse I know how hard it is to share and to work on moving past it. Sending hugs your way! Xo

  • JeeYoung

    I am so sorry for the things that you suffered as an innocent child. Thank you for sharing your honest and brave post. You are so strong! <3

  • Alia Preston

    This post is so open and thank you for sharing such honesty! xo